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2011 & 2012

hey,we're now in 2012...yeepeeyyyyyyyyy..hahaha..
the celebration for this new year,well nothing much..i was just sitting around,in front of sony bravia,watching movies (well its movie marathon..duhhhhhh) with my beloved family...well,i can say that it surely THE BEST moment in my life...since am staying at the hostel,spending time with them is like gold in mine...too precious..hehehe


well,let us rewind a bit the memories created in 2011...
hehe...well,for me,surely i can say that it all started after i got the SPM's result..i managed to get,perhaps i can say it as good...haha...i really am thankful..no doubt..hehe...because of me too scared,waiting for the result,my bro did find a single grey hair on top of my head..hahaha...funny..i'm just 18 for crying out loud.. :)


after few months,i did get the offer to one of the top colleges in Malaysia..am ecstatic..went to UITM PUNCAK ALAM,SELANGOR,MALAYSIA..(taking foundation in science),first week,orientation,totally hated it..am tired. first day of class,met many new friends...from different states..and they are amusing i must say..with the slang,accent,funny people.. now,am in the second sem..and my close friends are IESZA RAIHAN,NURULAIN,LIYANA NAJWA,FATIN ISKANDARSHAH,SHARIFAH NOOR,HAFIZ HAZIM,AM,KC,DILA... well,they are fun,caring,cute and so much more.. ((: They all have their own uniqueness... making the friendship even better..


now,after kissing my 2011 goodbye, i really hope that my resolution can be reached and who knows,maybe better..hahaha..really hope that 2012 can bring new things,new experiences,new clothes,new friends,well let see,what else...hahaha...kidding..i just wanna be a better person in life..doing good things...change towards the best...  ((:  


p/s : I spend the last moments of 2011 reflecting on how blessed I am. I have all a teen girl could ever ask for. I wish the same for all of you in 2012


well thats it for now from me..signing off from Malacca,Malaysia.. :)

tonight i wanna cry

in the middle of midnight,i was listening to a very touching song..never heard of it before...i just type crying song,and there 'tonight i wanna cry' popped out...hurm...cold night,the song suits perfectly...i dont know where the tears come,but i can sure u,i cried....this song its really amazing..sang by keith urban..its beautifulllll...while doin chem,my tears runs like am in a sad situation which am not.totally..perhaps i was thinking bout my daddy,mommy,siblings...man,miss them so much...or perhaps i can feel the loneliness deep down inside.. a smile can really make me feel better..but not for a long time...sometimes,no rain,thunder,lightning,i'll burst into tears.... yeah...u can say am pathetic..but i guess,nobody can understand me,,,when i turn back,i see no one...there,am in dark...alone.... people said that crying is one of the medicine but i guess not....at least not for me... this sog really potrayed how i feel...

alone lonely loner

cold...as there is an aircond in my room....the wind blows everything that's on my desk.. lovin it...but i'm alone... no room-8,no friends....hey,i cant expect them to be with me all the time right..yeah...thought so...

i just wanna express myself bout yesterday...it was a hectic day for me n friends...i dont know why but my mood suddenly changed...from good to moody....i didnt know why,but at a certain point i just wanna be alone..i listened to my musics really2 loud...i cant hear people talking to me.. i'm sorry guys if i ignored u... i wasnt do it on purpose. i'm so sorry..really..i was there sitting alone..doin my maths while my beloved friends talking,laughing but i couldnt join them.... when it was time for math tutorial,i went to BKA...with them but we didnt talk...its my fault...i'm being selfish...sorry.... there,,when we were in BKA,waiting for the tutor,i burst into tears....yet,i didnt show it to anyone...i just dont want them to know..i love my friends here...i just dont wanna lose them... huh..dramatic isnt it..only 1 person that noticed,,and that was Farah...clearly i dont wanna my friends to know that i was crying...so wiped my tear drops and pretend like there's nothing wrong that day...hurm...the only person that i told bout my feeling yesterday was Faiz..hey man,thanks for listening to my junks... perhaps i just wanna be alone..

to all my friends,i just wanna say sorry for being a selfish gal yesterday... ...

he's finally found the replacement....

ecstatic....hahaha..my first feeling when he talked to me......finally the day has come....i thought he was sulking...he asked me why i wrote something like that as my status...i told him......he said that .................. (its a secret) hahahaha.....then something,came out of nowhere,he said that he found someone else....the 2nd feeling that i felt was UPSET...i know i shouldnt...he's not mine....but i used to like him..so i guess,thats why i felt a little upset..but hey,i should be happy for him.....finally he found someone...i guess,its time for me to say goodbye.. but not in a sad way.. hey pal,i wish u happy with her....dont ever break her heart..

no more sadness..

cold...i must say...wearing my sweat shirt....lying under a blanket...hurm...it's such a warm surrounding....being alone in a room...what a lonely day... no one cares....what i do....in this poor room....silent..........its foggy outside and its like 5.30 pm here....the curtains arent open...the door,locked....perhaps i just wanna be alone today...i kept thinking bout that day...actually noboody ever know this story...it happened recently...even my dearly beloved best friends also have no idea... yeah....hard to believe huh...normally if u have any probs or anything,the first person u'll seek is ur best friend...but not me..well..not this time...

man,u walked infront of me...literally but still u didnt notice me....hard to believe....u saw my friend...u even say hi to her but me? not a chance... i thought we were close....but i guess...i was wrong...honestly,i was hoping that my friend was me...cause i'll get the chance to do even it is tiny little matter...i just wanna say hi to u....but i guess,it wont happen...i pretend like i didnt see u,saying hi to her,smile to her but dude,u're right infront of me...how can i pretend like u werent there..before this,u're like the closest friend i've ever had..i tell u my probs,listening to the advices that u gave...u spend ur time listening to what ever that i wanted to tell u..even it's the busiest time of ur life...u'll find a time for me...seeing u like that..huh...bittersweet...i was ecstatic at first...but then...its bitter..

i'm pathetic huh...yeah i guess i am...this thing is like a diary to me..i dont care if people dont read it...it just that i wanna express myself in words....the only thing that i dont want to happen is that bumping into u and the atmosphere become slightly weird...

waiting for yesterday

Here i am.....waiting for you.in the rain..sometimes,i feel like i've been neglected....is it true what were you saying? about your feeling? if that so,why dont u show it? anymore... i'm in cold..waiting for you to reply...but..as i expected..u didnt....what was my mistake? what have i done? i thought we're gonna be friends...at least..but u never care what i'm feeling...u just care bout yours...at a certain point, i feel like, being abandoned like this is better for me than waiting for a thing that is uncertain....i didnt cry....but i'm sad...i didnt deserve this...u can be franked..i dont mind...just please dont let me be alone in this fairytale land.... perhaps you've found someone that deserves u better but that doesnt mean that we cant be friends....u can share anything with me.like i said before..i'm gonna be there for u...always....those arent empty words....i mean it.... i used to feel the same as u did.... trust me...i know the feeling.... =.=''