what a life

hallo ya'll.. missin u guys so much. :D its been a long time since i wrote something here.. well.. kinda busy with a whole new life as a degree student.. what a hectic life.. yet it full with funs i must say. :)
i started off this year finishing my foundation studies at UITM PUNCAK ALAM.. oh my.. how i miss that place :') the experiences that i've got cannot be trade with anything.. when i said anything, i meant it.. such a roller-coaster ride back then.. :) amusing i must say. but there were memories that should be erased yet when thinking bout it , have a glance back at those memories, have made me a matured person.. :) looking back at all pictures captured during foundation seriously made me shed my tears... i miss each one of my classmates.. really wanna meet them right now.. watching videos starring by the A3's.. hahahaha. i really miss the moments during the picnic at ULU YAM, went to KKPR supporting friends doing performance... man.. while writing this, my tears did come out.. even we've only been there, as 1 unit for 10 months , more or less, we did become like siblings.. caring for each other.. thanks to my housemates n roomate.. KC,DILA,ZARA,BIHAH, ILA,ECAH,AISYAH, for taking care of me.. buying dinner for me.be there for me.. haha.. movies after cleaning our house.. :'( what a memory..

on JULY 22nd 2012, i entered a new life. life as a degree student.. now, am a MICETIAN. haha. not a martian.. when i first came here, honestly i hate this place.. it looks like a school 2 me.. not a University. well.. its ok.. i told myself.. during the orientation , oh my , oh my.. seriously, I HATE this place.. i just wanna get out from here.. cause i havent met someone that i can rely on.. but when i enter my class.. its a bit shocking cause i kinda like them actually.. i met MIRA, she's a kelantanese.. yet she's cool.. hahaha.. now, she's like my closest friend here. :) hmm.. 1 day, coming out of nowhere, tears shed form my eyes.. at the cafe. i was missing my friends during foundation.. i missed KC, WAWA, NURU, IESZA , NANO , PESAL.. hmm.. sometimes i feel like am unwanted here. but i guessed i was wrong.. i was blessed.. having my classmates that always support me from behind.. i love them so much..

well.. thats bout it.. :) will tell more in the future.. :)

-foundation-

owh my heart please be strong.. herm

sounds pathetic arent i?

yeah.. am talking bout ma heart.. am sorry if i've made anyone feels uncomfortable with me. i just need a place to share my feeling. herm.
okay, am about to reveal the thing.. well, as we all aware, in lives, surely we'll have someone close enough.. someone that we can rely on. yup, i have not only 1 but few people. sounds amazing right? yeah i know......... thanks to all my best friends that i've known since school or in Puncak Alam. :') thanks for making my life terrific

well, i dont wanna sound like an ungrateful person, but i feel like sometimes am alone in this place. feels like am in a black box, covered.. my friends are my oxygen but as soon as am covered, am lack of oxygen and eventually, its finished.. thats how i feel. sometimes i feel like i wanna sit at the corner of the room, by myself, cry myself out... but the tears wont come out... i just wanna scream... telling everyone that am not okay, i screamed, yet nobody listened..........

if u're in my shoes, how would u feel.. yeah, am surrounded by lovely people but why i feel like they actually dont understand me.. didnt listen to things dat i whispered.. herm.. am not a corpse guys.. sometimes, corpse can be sad too. am human.. am not asking for anything..i just wanna u guys to listen to what i whisper not what i act using my face.. am an actor.. thanks to u guys.. i've been hurt once.. i dont need 1 more. :'(

thanks for reading. i appreciate it..

crush..

hey everyone.. how r ya.. hehehe. okay, the topic that i'd like to share is surely has connection with the tittle. bhahaha.. yeah. me wanna talk bout the person that i've feelin for. well it started since we're introduced.. by my housemate/ his classmate.. haha. yeah. sounds like we're matchmake but u're guessing it wrongly.. yeah. hahaha/ well, a couple of days ago i did tell him bout ma feeling and it didnt work out.. its not that am asking or expecting anything. it just that i dont like the way we are now..it did break my heart.. we're no longer close like we're used to be.. i mean i know we're not close enough but now? its getting worse.. herm.. what to do.. he likes sum1 else.. :( i dont care bout that. it just that me and him are not the old us.. just hoping for the best now.. really hope dat our friendship remains the same.. all the talks,laughs,jokes.. herm... i'll pray d best for ya.. i never like sum1 very much like i like u.. seriously.. bye friend

new vid just for my mates.. :))

2011 & 2012

hey,we're now in 2012...yeepeeyyyyyyyyy..hahaha..
the celebration for this new year,well nothing much..i was just sitting around,in front of sony bravia,watching movies (well its movie marathon..duhhhhhh) with my beloved family...well,i can say that it surely THE BEST moment in my life...since am staying at the hostel,spending time with them is like gold in mine...too precious..hehehe


well,let us rewind a bit the memories created in 2011...
hehe...well,for me,surely i can say that it all started after i got the SPM's result..i managed to get,perhaps i can say it as good...haha...i really am thankful..no doubt..hehe...because of me too scared,waiting for the result,my bro did find a single grey hair on top of my head..hahaha...funny..i'm just 18 for crying out loud.. :)


after few months,i did get the offer to one of the top colleges in Malaysia..am ecstatic..went to UITM PUNCAK ALAM,SELANGOR,MALAYSIA..(taking foundation in science),first week,orientation,totally hated it..am tired. first day of class,met many new friends...from different states..and they are amusing i must say..with the slang,accent,funny people.. now,am in the second sem..and my close friends are IESZA RAIHAN,NURULAIN,LIYANA NAJWA,FATIN ISKANDARSHAH,SHARIFAH NOOR,HAFIZ HAZIM,AM,KC,DILA... well,they are fun,caring,cute and so much more.. ((: They all have their own uniqueness... making the friendship even better..


now,after kissing my 2011 goodbye, i really hope that my resolution can be reached and who knows,maybe better..hahaha..really hope that 2012 can bring new things,new experiences,new clothes,new friends,well let see,what else...hahaha...kidding..i just wanna be a better person in life..doing good things...change towards the best...  ((:  


p/s : I spend the last moments of 2011 reflecting on how blessed I am. I have all a teen girl could ever ask for. I wish the same for all of you in 2012


well thats it for now from me..signing off from Malacca,Malaysia.. :)

tonight i wanna cry

in the middle of midnight,i was listening to a very touching song..never heard of it before...i just type crying song,and there 'tonight i wanna cry' popped out...hurm...cold night,the song suits perfectly...i dont know where the tears come,but i can sure u,i cried....this song its really amazing..sang by keith urban..its beautifulllll...while doin chem,my tears runs like am in a sad situation which am not.totally..perhaps i was thinking bout my daddy,mommy,siblings...man,miss them so much...or perhaps i can feel the loneliness deep down inside.. a smile can really make me feel better..but not for a long time...sometimes,no rain,thunder,lightning,i'll burst into tears.... yeah...u can say am pathetic..but i guess,nobody can understand me,,,when i turn back,i see no one...there,am in dark...alone.... people said that crying is one of the medicine but i guess not....at least not for me... this sog really potrayed how i feel...

alone lonely loner

cold...as there is an aircond in my room....the wind blows everything that's on my desk.. lovin it...but i'm alone... no room-8,no friends....hey,i cant expect them to be with me all the time right..yeah...thought so...

i just wanna express myself bout yesterday...it was a hectic day for me n friends...i dont know why but my mood suddenly changed...from good to moody....i didnt know why,but at a certain point i just wanna be alone..i listened to my musics really2 loud...i cant hear people talking to me.. i'm sorry guys if i ignored u... i wasnt do it on purpose. i'm so sorry..really..i was there sitting alone..doin my maths while my beloved friends talking,laughing but i couldnt join them.... when it was time for math tutorial,i went to BKA...with them but we didnt talk...its my fault...i'm being selfish...sorry.... there,,when we were in BKA,waiting for the tutor,i burst into tears....yet,i didnt show it to anyone...i just dont want them to know..i love my friends here...i just dont wanna lose them... huh..dramatic isnt it..only 1 person that noticed,,and that was Farah...clearly i dont wanna my friends to know that i was crying...so wiped my tear drops and pretend like there's nothing wrong that day...hurm...the only person that i told bout my feeling yesterday was Faiz..hey man,thanks for listening to my junks... perhaps i just wanna be alone..

to all my friends,i just wanna say sorry for being a selfish gal yesterday... ...