no more sadness..

cold...i must say...wearing my sweat shirt....lying under a blanket...hurm...it's such a warm surrounding....being alone in a room...what a lonely day... no one cares....what i do....in this poor room....silent..........its foggy outside and its like 5.30 pm here....the curtains arent open...the door,locked....perhaps i just wanna be alone today...i kept thinking bout that day...actually noboody ever know this story...it happened recently...even my dearly beloved best friends also have no idea... yeah....hard to believe huh...normally if u have any probs or anything,the first person u'll seek is ur best friend...but not me..well..not this time...

man,u walked infront of me...literally but still u didnt notice me....hard to believe....u saw my friend...u even say hi to her but me? not a chance... i thought we were close....but i guess...i was wrong...honestly,i was hoping that my friend was me...cause i'll get the chance to do even it is tiny little matter...i just wanna say hi to u....but i guess,it wont happen...i pretend like i didnt see u,saying hi to her,smile to her but dude,u're right infront of me...how can i pretend like u werent there..before this,u're like the closest friend i've ever had..i tell u my probs,listening to the advices that u gave...u spend ur time listening to what ever that i wanted to tell u..even it's the busiest time of ur life...u'll find a time for me...seeing u like that..huh...bittersweet...i was ecstatic at first...but then...its bitter..

i'm pathetic huh...yeah i guess i am...this thing is like a diary to me..i dont care if people dont read it...it just that i wanna express myself in words....the only thing that i dont want to happen is that bumping into u and the atmosphere become slightly weird...