tonight i wanna cry

in the middle of midnight,i was listening to a very touching song..never heard of it before...i just type crying song,and there 'tonight i wanna cry' popped out...hurm...cold night,the song suits perfectly...i dont know where the tears come,but i can sure u,i cried....this song its really amazing..sang by keith urban..its beautifulllll...while doin chem,my tears runs like am in a sad situation which am not.totally..perhaps i was thinking bout my daddy,mommy,siblings...man,miss them so much...or perhaps i can feel the loneliness deep down inside.. a smile can really make me feel better..but not for a long time...sometimes,no rain,thunder,lightning,i'll burst into tears.... yeah...u can say am pathetic..but i guess,nobody can understand me,,,when i turn back,i see no one...there,am in dark...alone.... people said that crying is one of the medicine but i guess not....at least not for me... this sog really potrayed how i feel...

alone lonely loner

cold...as there is an aircond in my room....the wind blows everything that's on my desk.. lovin it...but i'm alone... no room-8,no friends....hey,i cant expect them to be with me all the time right..yeah...thought so...

i just wanna express myself bout yesterday...it was a hectic day for me n friends...i dont know why but my mood suddenly changed...from good to moody....i didnt know why,but at a certain point i just wanna be alone..i listened to my musics really2 loud...i cant hear people talking to me.. i'm sorry guys if i ignored u... i wasnt do it on purpose. i'm so sorry..really..i was there sitting alone..doin my maths while my beloved friends talking,laughing but i couldnt join them.... when it was time for math tutorial,i went to BKA...with them but we didnt talk...its my fault...i'm being selfish...sorry.... there,,when we were in BKA,waiting for the tutor,i burst into tears....yet,i didnt show it to anyone...i just dont want them to know..i love my friends here...i just dont wanna lose them... huh..dramatic isnt it..only 1 person that noticed,,and that was Farah...clearly i dont wanna my friends to know that i was crying...so wiped my tear drops and pretend like there's nothing wrong that day...hurm...the only person that i told bout my feeling yesterday was Faiz..hey man,thanks for listening to my junks... perhaps i just wanna be alone..

to all my friends,i just wanna say sorry for being a selfish gal yesterday... ...